vault backup: 2023-09-22 09:02:19

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content/notes/daily/2023-09-22.md

content/notes/daily/2023-09-22.md

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 I hope I've never made you feel like this, Jade. I hope you never feel this alone in your life.
 
+I'm disappointed in myself for allowing all of this to happen. I'm disappointed in myself for compromising so much. I'm disappointed in myself for not standing my ground and for trying to be what you needed, when I should have just been myself. I'm just really disappointed in myself more than anything else, I've been treating you better than I have been treating myself.
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 I loved you with all my heart and it's heartbreaking for me to acknowledge that you don't feel the same. I can't continue like this, Jade. I can handle us living together because I'm going to Brazil soon, but we can't be close like we were. I've never felt this disappointed or upset. It's as though the version of you I loved has disappeared, and now only exists in my memories. I genuinely believed we'd always have each other's backs, but now I see that was only true if there was a chance we'd get back together. When I look back at our relationship, all I see is me giving my all to someone who wouldn't do the same for me.
 
-I'm disappointed in myself for allowing all of this to happen. I'm disappointed in myself for compromising so much. I'm disappointed in myself for not standing my ground and for trying to be what you needed, when I should have just been myself. I'm just really disappointed in myself more than anything else, I've been treating you better than I have been treating myself.