vault backup: 2023-09-22 09:30:10

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content/notes/daily/2023-09-22.md

content/notes/daily/2023-09-22.md

@@ -23,6 +23,6 @@ I hope I've never made you feel like this, Jade. I hope you never feel this alon
 
 I'm disappointed in myself for allowing all of this to happen. I'm disappointed in myself for compromising so much. I'm disappointed in myself for not standing my ground and for trying to be what you needed, when I should have just been myself. I'm just really disappointed in myself more than anything else, I've been treating you better than I have been treating myself. You know what I've been told? I've heard it from more than one person that I'm like the comfy old couch in their lives – always there, always dependable, ready to put my own feelings aside to help. And somehow, that makes people take me for granted, not treating me as well as they should because they know I won't walk away. It's like I'm that familiar old couch that everyone loves to sit on but doesn't really take good care of. It's heartbreaking because it makes perfect sense.
 
-I loved you with all my heart and it's heartbreaking for me to acknowledge that you don't feel the same. I can't continue like this, Jade. I can handle us living together because I'm going to Brazil soon, but we can't be close like we were. I've never felt this disappointed or upset. It's as though the version of you I loved has disappeared, and now only exists in my memories. I genuinely believed we'd always have each other's backs, but now I see that was only true if there was a chance we'd get back together. When I look back at our relationship, all I see is me giving my all to someone who wouldn't do the same for me.
+I loved you with all my heart and it hurts for me to acknowledge that you don't feel the same. I can't be fooled by words, I have to interpret your actions. I can't continue like this, Jade. I can handle us living together because I'm going to Brazil soon, but we can't be close like we were. I've never felt this disappointed or upset. It's as though the version of you I loved has disappeared, and now only exists in my memories. I genuinely believed we'd always have each other's backs, but now I see that was only true if there was a chance we'd get back together. When I look back at our relationship, all I see is me giving my all to someone who wouldn't do the same for me. So yeah, I am sorry but I'm leaving your life.